2 years alrdy...

its almost 2 years and im still there. yes. there.

my resignation was rejected.
simply put, i was offered an alternative.
lesser working days, but subjected to patient load... apply for leave and it shall be given (most of the time)
why did i take it? since it almost the same thing with that miserable pay and sai gang??
blame it on me.. im stubborn and really a karchuah (pa si buey cao)
patients somehow gets my attention as and when they want. i'll make sure im at work for these certain patiets whom i know dont prefer someone else attending to them... they'll complain to me, ask me y i took off when they are coming, complain the muffin they got me was eaten by someone else, blah blah... u know...
they even started calling me for advice..mind u sometimes or rather most of the time its not related to my job.
aunt agony. im already in enough agony and now im promoted to aunty?! wth...

so i agreed and stayed on. how long more i really dunno.
ive got other plans popping up and i dont mind the cash at the moment.
money is good, i cant resist~

i can resist food, rest, play and men but not cash.
that explains this thick layer of dust on my shoulder and my honorary position at the top of the shelf..
ahh well~ food is the next thing i cant say no to~ lol! thats why my figure is AWOL!

i've been promoted by my patients to nurse and recently medicine student.
LOL! they are really such a cute bunch~
most of them are anyway~ cute and really appreciative...
thats why i never complain staying late for them, doing all the dirty stuffs for them, going down on my knees to help them.
i cant remember how many tee-shirts i have discarded since i started working with them.
can u imagine going to shops to get a new tee to change into just so that u can leave office and go home or school with a peace of mind? and can u imagine having a set of tolieteries in ur locker just in case u need to shower and change?
i dunno how much ive spent on all these but the satisfaction is all worthwhile.
seeing them recover, cured and saying bye for real feels so damn good.

sometimes i feel like a star~ the patient would come with their family after OP and ask for a photography session.
they say they want to show their family and friends back at home the doctor and nurses~
thats real sweet and im glad they are happy seeing us~

ive sealed 2 case notes so far~ it was horrible but well~ this is part of the job.
we mourn for a while and thats it. cant let these emotions get in the way~ not that we are cold blooded. its called professionalism.
glad to say these 2 patients were happy and... well~ im glad they are at home with their loved ones at the end.. its what we encourage here. go home. have good quality of life, enjoy as much as u can, love ur family, it doesnt have to be morbid or depressing.

cancer is scary. this is a difficult line.
we are fighting a really powerful enemy but we are not losing either.
my position in the office has improved and im taken seriously now.
friendship, bonds are formed. its like family now.

i see them more than my family...
i miss my family.
6 and a half day at work really isnt helpful.
and i've got my degree (which im hoping against hope i can do really well~) and a hobby (and friends) which i would love to keep: Consonance. new toy vying for all the attention: solerworld. haha... (*drool...good looker, can sing, friendly in a package. twins somemore~ wa~ :p)
friendships which needs some attention too... im sorry guys.... miss ya too~ theres my darlins pig, kitty, janice, fabius.... and my crazy sisters selin, tammie, vicky... and theres the few uncles whom i havent seen in like what? 2 3 years?! hello~ where are U??
a special person whom i would love not to give up on yet. im trying, hopefully something would come out of it. well i can only try this hard...it depends on him too...haiz...im losing myself alrdy... giving and not reciving is hard. Sweenie JIA YOU!!
my classmates... the support is really awsome~ lol! cant imagine class without u guys. trust me, they are a really diversified group of crazy individual! Yiyi~, jiejie, uncle, jac, fish, xiaomei, moon, shirleen, rash, malini etc etc etc....i probably would not have scored this well in exams if not for the nagging and disciplining from them~ ha.....

Sweenie's now at work. doc at OT so im free for a while. No nursing manager so can be naughty~
for a while... (>.<)